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you guys are like everything to me
we do everything together..snapping pictures, photography-ing, shopping,, gossipping and most of all we complete each other laughter.
now,this guy name is yazid ibrahim.. an adik gula of mine..he also one my life's colours..yes yes yes..an adik gula..huhu..
what i really wanted to tell in this blog is what they have done in making me happy again after my heart fell on the ground and break into pieces.. they know how my boyfriend left me,what he said in order to break up with me and how i fell in love with my own bestfriends and get bleeding heart after that..
when i was alone thinking bout what had happened,,i keep questioning..WHY? WHY ME? WHERE DID I GO WRONG? WHAT IS THE THING THAT I DON'T HAVE? i was like so daym broken,highly strung for what they had said and gloomy over everything..
everyday after i pray,, this question i headed to allah.. i really need an answer, why must he go after he takes my only heart? why must you make my life this hard until i can't accept it? but finally i know why this is my fate. i finally know why i'm the one who facing all this.. it is because He left me all these beautiful treasure which is right infront of me without i realized,all that i've been wanted is there.. IT'S HERE! in my life for this whole time...
this is why my heart finally accept all this fate.they give me advices that really makes me realize he will never be mine. they said i am too HOLLIER-THAN-THOU until i can't bear all this.. they said i have to change.. i live happily before when i doens't have him in my life,, so why should i regret over things? all this tears,,all this miffed, is gonna help me in being lot more stronger in the future..and i'm sure what they said is true..SO DAMN FUCKING TRUE..
when i was still fragile,you guys came..accompanying me..even at night until 5 a.m. because you don't want me to remember all that things..THANK YOU AFIFAH!
you make me able to stood up once again and smile,laugh,EAT! and be brave to confront with my fear and sadness..
TO DAYAH,ANIS AND G-MA and ADIK GULA.. all of you guys were so brave in saving me from my own feelings , when it almost clutch me away from reality,you ladies and my dear lord came and be my only saviour.. thank you so much..
you guys makes me realize that
and for you whom i really really love
without hesitation i am letting you go..
to my dearest hobnob AEIOU,, and adik gula ku sayang..
and thanks once again for all your advices because now i do believe that i could be happy.. <i always said that to you,now i said it to myself..huhu>
you guys are the best !
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