dedicated to myself .. life .. friends
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as world revolves, i'm following it's rhythm.. as world moving in circles, i'm running trying to survive, and now.. it decided that i have to follow it's way.. no more running and hiding..
23rd november 2010, my life is going to change .. the exam i'm going to face is so daym hard.. it put my life in risk, if i failed this exam, that's it..i'm done.. no future is going to wait ahead of me.. that's why i tried my best to study and keep the time revolves around me, not the world..
there's much more that i'm afraid than just failing.. and this is much everything :
- i'm going to loose all my best buds and not going to find someone like them
- i'm far too stupid to further my study in any universities
- my friends are going to meet new friends while im not and they're going to forget about me
- life are way too difficult for me to handle
- greatest boyfriend on earth are going to find someone else better than me and left me
- other girls in universities are way smoking hot while i'm just a boring kampung girl till all of them bullying me
- i'm afraid i can't cope with the new independent life
i know, i'm not going to live as high school students life forever but the new way of life seems to be so hard.. i mean, i'm not so smart and i'm not too hot while everything that i see in this life is people friends with someone by their brain and looks.. i don't have that package you know.. plus, life isn't as easy as it seems..
all that i ever hope is :
- my friends are still going to be my BFF
- my boyfriend are not going to leave me
- i pass my examination with flying colours ; 10A+
- future is going to be great ; big house, big cars (NISSAN MURANO lol) , EXPENSIVE ASSET (i wish i'm chubbier) ! and great husband (MUHD NUR FITRI HALILI B JUBRI) ;))
- my mom and dad is going to be proud of me............. I REALLY WANT THIS ONE...
well,, i guess thats all ? wish me luck in my SPM.. i'm going to need a lot of it.. and i really must desperately need all your supports... to all saujana hills chicks and hotties .. good luck !!
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